This week I discovered that I don't do very well without structure. This alarming discovery came about when I was graciously given (basically) Monday-Thursday off because both of my bosses were out of town. I say basically because I did go into the office occasionally, usually around 2pm, to check on mail, faxes, etc. Depending on what had come in, I either stayed an hour or so, or I left. Yeah I know, it's rough (and how AMAZING are my bosses for doing such a kind thing, right?). BUT, to my dismay, I did not do very well with such "openness". I know, I know -- what is WRONG with me?! This is every artist's/musician's dream -- to be able to spend endless hours and entire days writing, creating, etc...But I just felt...lost...and a little frozen. I had these big, empty days ahead of me, and I honestly did not know what to do with myself. I had really hoped that I would be able to dip my toe into the waters of "working from home" -- sort of a test to see how I would manage my time if I actually got my art and music off the ground enough to not HAVE to go to an office every day. Looks like I failed that test. I did okay on Monday -- wrote a verse or two of a new song, finished the Jersey bowl (I will post pics soon) and made a significant dent in a new canvas collage piece I am now working on. Tuesday was okay, but not as good as Monday. Wednesday was no good at all. Thursday was worse. Ah well...if that day eventually comes when I CAN sustain myself on art & music alone, I will just have to be really diligent and create my own structure.
Other random "news" from the week:
* there was...another practice with my potential "band" (mentioned here). It went better this time...last time was kind of -eh- but after this second rehearsal, I have hope that it will *maybe* work out. Time will tell...
* there was...Casablanca in Bryant Park. Even though I could hear/see NOTHING, it was still a magical experience. Something about watching an old classic, outdoors, while surrounded by the twinkling lights of NYC ::magic::
* there was...busking in Central Park to earn some extra cash (my roommate came along -- I'm too scared to go alone!). We not only made fast friends with strangers in the park, but I also got to "jam" with a three-year-old named Matthew who had his little guitar with him. It was awesome.
* there was...mucho bookworming: I am almost done with this book, which has gotten MUCH better (good, in fact!) and I only have a few more chapters to go.
Tomorrow I head to the Poconos for a whitewater rafting adventure. Yippeee!
Now if you will excuse me -- I have popcorn to eat and some season 8 Friends to watch (I can't seem to get enough of my Friends this week. It's my "happy place").
4 comments:
you are not alone in the whole free-time freeze-up. I sometimes wonder how I would do with all the time in the world. I can hardly make myself kick it in to gear with the free time that i do have. I think when it comes down to it though, you'd make it work, whatever the circumstances. Your life is way too jam-packed with creativity and talent not to make something of it :)
Did I ever tell you about the hugger busker I "met" in Montreal? :)
anna- no, i don't think so...even though i believe we discussed both busking AND montreal, separately, this weekend. hmmm...that thought must have gotten buried in the strata.
Or the thought may have been lost in the depths of philosophical rafting! Well you see, there was a Hugger Busker on one of the pedestrian streets in Montreal and he was giving away hugs. I LOVE hugs! So I went, and I gave the hugger busker a big bear hug! I think he has a myspace page...or someone like him...trying to spread the love and give hugs around the world. I wonder how that would go over in Central Park :)
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